Nothing at all has changed since I last posted. This in itself disappoints me, though I guess it's good that I haven't died in a horrendous car accident, or worse yet, been kicked out of AFS France for whatever reason. As I sit here, listening to music and laughing to myself about the mounds of homework I must inevitably overcome, I am at ease knowing that yes, I am 100% definitely going to France next year. As you might guess, I can barely contain myself. But it also brings about a sort of melancholy feeling...
In my English class yesterday, we discussed the final exam, and exciting end-of-year deadlines that will be coming up in the next couple months. I looked around the room, at some of my best friends, and some people that I had only met this year, and was truly blown away by the importance of my exchange. What am I going to do without my best friends, field hockey, my family, neighbors, even my school? All the things and people I rely on every day without thinking about it. What will I do without the comfort and stability that I possess? Living in this town for almost my entire life, I've never been in the position where I had to make new friends when I'm out of my comfort zone. Next year will be so... new. As AFS says "not good, not bad, just different."
Even this cannot phase my excitement, though. Part of the reason that I am so ecstatic is how completely new this experience will be. I'm excited to gain a new sense of independence, to learn a new language, to experience something entirely on my own. I can't wait for this completely unique aspect of life, this experience that no typical high-schooler can relate to. I can't wait to see how making new friends, learning a new language, and being away from all that I know will change me as a person.
Anyways, enough rambling. I need to go find other ways to not do my homework.